I just had to have my cat put to sleep...literally...I am so sad

Diana, this is really sad to read, must be the worse decision to have to make, i dread it with my dog. You done right, but sure it doesn't make the sadness go away.

Thank you all again, I really can't express how important your kind words have been.  When something like this happens you tend to feel so alone, even though you know that many others have gone through the same experience.  I found it too painful to be in my house today, every where I looked I saw his sweet, trusting little face.  I spent the entire day at the local book shop in their cafe, reading and drinking lattes, and mopping at my eyes with a box of kleenex. 

I know I must make peace with this; I can't keep avoiding my house because of the memories. LOL!

Hi Diana. We're really sorry to hear about your cat too. Been through it a few times too with family pets down the years and it's such a painful time for everyone but it will get better. You need to take comfort in the fact that Merlin was a very lucky cat indeed to have an owner that loved and cared for him so much and will go on loving him through the fond memories that he gave. Wherever he is right now, you can bet he's purring away contently at the great life and love you gave him over the years. Find comfort and peace in that and things will get better soon. All the best, Chris & Sarah

Diana

Nothing I can say will make it better.  I too cried for my dog not so long ago.  I still miss her terribly at times.  It does get easier, but it's going to take a while.  Just take one day at a time.  I bet she's still their with you.  She will make herself known to you, just to let you know she is ok.

Karen

Thank you Chris, Sarah, and Karen for your sympathy and your encouraging words.  It helps to hear from other who have been through this...to know that it will get less painful.  It's a horrid feeling to dread coming home. Maybe I'll just sleep on a park bench tonight! LOL!

Ron, thank you my friend for your support.  I know that your jibes at animals are in good fun (even if you really don't like them, LOL!), and that you would never be cruel to any animal.

I suppose the one thing about loss is that it makes you feel all the other losses of your life more acutely...be those losses incurred through death or lost friendships and lost opportunities etc.

I know I shall get past this, and the only way to the sunny side of the street again is to walk bravely through the shadows.

I am truly grateful to have my friends on this forum to help me get through this time.