A difficult few days. need some prayers and warm thoughts

As you know, my dad (Bert) died yesterday, and today my oldest son is joining his younger brother in the ranks of the Untied States Army.

I knew that my boys would leave home together, they are like twins, albeit a few years apart in age, but I had no idea that they would join the military, even though their dad is a veteran of the Air Force.

I am usually quite a stoic person, but confess these past few days are taking a toll and I feel quite emotionally drained at the moment. 

Easily understood, many years ago I watched my now hubby get asked to pack up and leave for the military...he made the best of things from it. They grow up an lot in boot camp Sue...they have to do this also, it makes men out of boys, it would be nice if it weren't for the dangers of the wars going on now..we send prayers that they be protected always.

Your my number three I guess...we have an in-law had an stroke and was on her death bed over the weekend, and then Patrick Swayzy....one of the astrological aspects of this week will be changes and sudden surprises..and everything is in retrograde or squared, not good..as the astrologer said, gas up your vehicles, stock up on food, and walk carefully toward is weekend..esp by Friday. It should tame down an lot of robust good ole fun in life for an bit...but it to will pass on to somethng different.

Still waters run deep, dear Sue. I have found that it is those who appear "stoic" who often feel the deepest.

There is a lot of loss in your life right now and you must give yourself permission to grieve and the time to heal. Though your sons are alive the loss of their everyday presence and the metamorphosis of your relationship with them is still a loss that must be grieved.

Be gentle with your self. Eat lots of chocolate, watch movies that make you feel good (or ones that help you cry), and most of all, lean heavily upon our heavenly father and your friends here on POE. We love you.

((((((((((((((((((((sue)))))))))))))))))

a big warm hug for you. and sending lots of comforting vibes...with love.

Sue. Finding strength and moving forward when the stakes are high, is a hard thing to come together with. But know that we are all here for you, and sending positive thoughts your way. my own hopes and prayers are that you will find peace in spite of it all, even when the stakes are high.

That's what we're here for, Sue.  Your bereavement for your father is only compounding other losses (changes) going on right now in your life.  Grief is the response to any kind of loss, so let yourself grieve.  All will be well.  And we will cover your sons with prayers for their safety and well being too.

God bless.  xx

Could it get any worse? Well, yes.

My son got home late last night from his signing up trip to Sacramento, only to tell us that he reports to boot camp NEXT WEEK. I leave for England Friday, I will not be here next week.

 Friday, the last time I see him for 15 weeks. I would rather not think about it.  

I know there are people out there suffering far worse than myself (a nearbly town just buried a 20 year old soldier yesterday), and this is but a passing trial. But oh, how I wish it hadn't come on top of the death of my dad.

I thank you so very much for your prayers, thoughts and well wishes.

I'm off to work today, so will leave my worried at home for the time being.